goodbye old daddy. =)

things are different now..

im failing.

i got too depressed to study during our midterm week, bcoz 2days before our midterm exam, we found out that daddy(Lolo) has cancer(pancreas), stage 4. his kidney and liver are also affected. it was hard for us to believe evrything because daddy's very macho and healthy.. daddy stayed in Metropolitan Hospital for almost 3 weeks, the hospital's perfect for daddy cause I have a cousin-doctor there and the hospital is just a tricycle away from our house. my aunties and uncles flew here from UK and US with their family. it was really hard for me to see ol' dadd very thin, weak and helpless. im not used to that!..

we bought herbal medicines in China.. bought almost evrything just to save him. but i guess daddy really had to go, he passed away last September 2 at around 5am.

i love the venue of the funeral, its spacey and beautiful, daddy must've loved it, i also love his coffin. i stood infront of daddy's coffin and prayed, mom stood beside me and prayed with me. i was silent during the funeral. everybody was chatting and eating. but i chose to sit in the corner. i cried a little, i dont want to break down because i know daddy would'nt be pleased to see his little princess like that... Papa was worried xe dn-dead-ma ku lng mga yummy foods including my favorite chocolate cake. i was NOT okay. i was depressed and all. duh, i just lost the best-old-daddy and they're expecting me to eat and chat?! had the mass at around 9pm.. i was the reader (If that's what they call it, whatever.) after the mass, i felt BETTER. i wasnt sad nor depressed anymore. the mass really helped. the priest's sermon made me realize a lot of things, about life, death and God's plans. i felt good. again, i went & stood infront of daddy's coffin and prayed. i thanked him and God for everything, i asked God if he can take care of ol' daddy for me. i thanked ol' daddy for the memories, love and laughters he shared with me. i love you old daddy, i'll miss you very much. i know that you'll be with me/with us spiritually, i guess... that's enough. =) enjoy heaven daddy! you've touched/helped thousands of hearts/souls , you've done enough. we'll be strong for you. =) i'll see you there,hopefully! haha

mom and our other relatives are in Bicol now, they resumed the funeral there..coz most of daddy's relatives lives there. me, papa, shoti, karl will fly in Bicol this coming thursday. i'll be seeing my great-grandparents again, i hope they're okay..
old daddy's at peace.
old daddy's home.
old daddy's with Him.